Thanks Maggie... :D

Today I have a very funny meeting with my friend Maggie, it was very very funny I liked very much this tipe of meeting...

At morning I was totally sad because my boyfriend, now, I feel better because I have a friend who support me when I need it.

Yesterday when my boyfriends makes me feel bad I chat with my dear frien Lorena, she was a very close friend when I was at preparatory. A crazy Friend who all need.

I said, I had a Syndrome, ok, this is good, I'm special and unique, I have "c'est qui est" that all want. I try to convence me that all girls want to be like me.

My boyfriend, ok, call him... Jay... Jay was not my first love, I have another experience with other people, good and bad experience, I was cheat by my ex boyfriend who thinks that I didn't ever notice that, and he had the... the... the face and said me: 'Hi, she's X... a friend'. I met her and talked to her but I sensed something weak between they.

A few week later I had a problem with this man and then, few days later a friend said me he was cheating me with... that X's girl.

I felt so sad, so disgusting and so bitch. I want to cut his noble part and feed the dogs.

Yeah, I was so sadic.

But I didn't do it.

Few boyfriends later I met Jay. He was a dream, my beloved person. <3

Fisrt we became a very close friend, we met each other at University because our friends. When we talked was like all world doesn't exist. The time passed and a friend, Andrea, was our Celestine, she prepared a meeting for us.

Now, we have 3 years and few mounths. I always said that I remember the exactly important day and the time we past together, but the reallity is I don't remember all. I'm a very bad girl.

I borned in a traditional latin familly, and I have a different culture and tradition that other people, and, I respect my tradition.

The problem with muy boyfriend was that I couldn't go to the beach with him family, I was so sad because I know it was my fault, I know very well.

But, I arguee with him and he said something arrogant and he hurt me, he hurt very very much because he said something about my syndrome.

I was so sad.

And in the day when he travel I notice him in the msn, and he open a chat room and talked to me, ok, I answered him but, oh surpise!, he didn't answer. I said me: "Ok, maybe he has another things to do".

When he answered me he said me: "I think you was no able".

I answered: "I was talking with my sister for something in the University".

And then we talked about my sickness and how I feel, he said me to go to see a doctor, and I acted like a child because I don't like doctors because they're suits, they're glasses and they're medicine.

After that I had to go with my sister to bought a boock and I said him: "bey, XOXO, I luv u!".

HE NEVER ANSWERED ME.

I felt bad.

Then I returned to my home 2 hours later and he was at msn all this time, I wrote him and he never answered. Ok, there was a problem, I didn't insist because I have dignity.

A hour later he wrote me and only said me: "chao".

I never answered him.

Few moments later and call Maggie and I talk to her.

We talked in a little bar.

I related her all the problem: "this time I'm hungry because, apart that I felt very very bad because him, he want to be the victim, and then, he's an idiot... and the worst is that all of this is because I coudln't went to the beach with him... really I couldn't... I had strong reasons... all womans do only one... ONE thing to men and you are the worst over all the world... but, they can do 50 things on you and you can't do anything because is so normal... I said he's a really idiot, because in the msn he was really and idiot".

The mens are really childish.

And Maggie said me: "really, really the men are childish, this is the correcto word. You only do one thing and he had all the drama... you're crazy, you're neurotic... bla bla bla".

I interrupted: "oh.... or You don't have the reason, I don't understand the point, and this is no important".

We insult the mens all the night.

Now... we take a decition... we want to study the mens.

:D...

This is a good idea....

:,(

Is wrong to be different?

I'm different, I know it.... I have a syndrome, this make me different for the rest of the people, but, why my boyfriend said he understand when he didn't understand me....

I love him, I really love him but somedays I feels like he only see by himself not for me, I don't have his support or his comprension, I only have his love when he's happy or when he have time to talk to me...

I feel unconfortable, I feel like... I don't know how to feel...

The wolrd is different to me, the people, the comunity is all different. I feel like I only have 3 colors, when all people have millions of colors to use when they want, they can paint, they can cry and hug, can run and can feel unconfortable and said it, but, I don't understand when they said it, when they need a hug or when they hug me, is weak... I feel is weak...

I only want support.

I only want to feel confortable whit someone who understand me.

I only want love.

Hi everybody...

Ok, this is new for me...

I'm Ilse Escobar, 22 years old, studying international business in UEES-Ecuador.

I can speak, interpret and writte 4 languages: Spanish, English, French and Japanese.

I like draw and paint and this blog was created only for public my creations about pictures and draw, I like draw to much.

This is so simple, I'm going to publish something about my life in a simple line of character in comic like manga... I don't know yet.

I'll do it in Spanish, English, French and Japanese.

よろしくおねがいします！